Babys such a baby!

At the moment I am content. I feel fat, and gained some weight but still content. Listening to Human Waste Project, and loving Aimee Echo more and more each second. I wish I would've seen them play in October, she looked gorgeous. Once in a lifetime opportunity :p oh, well I see theSTART in March. Maybe Aimee will do the splits at the Knitting Factory...I can only hope -_- haha, or the spit and fingers<3 Anyways, enough of that...I can't get enough of this song though, "Electra". Ahhhhh. I'm not sure why so much drama, yet I'm happy :3

& the reason for the picture of Jigglypuff is because its so darn cute, and silly. Idk. I feel like watching the first Pokemon episodes [they would show on the WB]. Yes, I watch cartoons. I actually feel like watching The Marvelous Misadventures of Flapjack right now, I love itttt. ~Babys such a baby!

Vertical Labret

If I get any other piercings, that will be the one. I'm such a pussy though. I know its going to hurt like bitch to get it pierced, and definitely going to bleed. And I think since I have a big bottom lip its going to hurt more. Oh, another reason why I don't want to get it..I'm afraid if I get it and eventually take it out it will not only scar my lip, but the hole won't shut. So I'm still really thinking about it. If I make up my mind and decide to get it, I'm getting it soon after I turn 18.



Ps: Who plays GH World Tour this early? ME. & I'm actually playing with Louie. Ha.
I should probably do laundry. haa. it can wait.

& who's the asshole who lost the tv remote :U

Did I just gain 5 lbs?

Because honestly I feel like I did -_-

I think I should quit smoking. Because I end up eating so much.
Like last night...Jack in the Box and Burger King. That's sick x_x
Now I feel really fat, and wish I could run it off right now. But I'm babysitting my 9yr old brother. -sigh- And Kaylan spent the night. She should be leaving in a few to move the last couple of things in her house. Anyways that reminds me...

Stateline!~Never been. So excited. Just wanna get away from all this bullshit, too. Also, I haven't been to the desert in a while too. & I'm curious who is going to be down there with us...
Hopefully its pretty dope :)

Oh, but back on the weight thing.
So Monday might go running with Adam and them, its a maybe. I want to though. And I think I'm going to stop drinking soda from a while, drink a lot more water, and eat less...or maybe just eat a little better...or not eat late at night like at 3am o_o but still do some exercise too. Like sit-ups, yeah...before summer gets here. I def should so I can actually feel comfortable going to the beach in a bikini..now only if I could remember all this and have some self control... -.-





PS: Found Kaylan's sewing machine yesterday. Finally going to sew some shit up!

Je suis

I Like 'Em Weird

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I'm Running

on 1 hour of sleep. Awesome! Ha, I'm sleepy. But it was so worth it. :3

I had a 160 questions on french 2 final. I thought I'd never finish it. I almost fell asleep half way through haha. Anyways, as I'm typing Dillon is kneeling right next to me, yeah he likes to kneel.

I have to wash clothes and wash dishes. and my phone is still out of service.
today was fun.


fun fact~i'm silly when i'm tired.



ps: I'm happy.

At the Moment

I am very irritated. Impatient. & Confused.




Listening to Tegan and Sara-Living Room, with the volume on my speakers all the way up. Lacey got me into them. This song really hasn't annoyed me yet, which is surprising because I play it over and over again. I need to go to a concert SOON. Since I decided not to see theSTART earlier this month because I wasn't feeling it, all that drama started. Well, they play again in March which should be epic. Wish I could see TBM though.

I'm supposed to be babysitting my brothers while my mom and Mario go out to see a movie. But they are watching tv in the other room, because I kicked them out of the living room like a bitch. Ughh. I'm not sure what it is. But I'm just in such a bad mood. Out of nowhere I just get REALLY irritated, every little thing just builds and builds onto it. -sigh- I hate being confused and I hate being so damn impatient. I feel like I can't fucking help it. FUCKK.

Also, my phone will probably be shut off in a few hours. Or by midnight. Because they haven't paid the bill. But they are paying it tomorrow, so I'll only be w/o it for a few hours. Sucks because I don't even have a house phone right now, my mom hasn't paid the bill for that either...



On another note~


I feel like I'm going to get hurt, but I know it'd be my own fault. I don't want to stop though. I want it pretty bad. And by it, I mean...well actually I'm not exactly sure what 'it' means. Well not yet at least...

Oh Dear

I am so confused. What have I gotten myself into?

But I cannot stop, I don't really want to at all -sigh-



Anyways, what is up with everyone being a douche to me? I'm pretty much talking about close friends, just being jerks to me. WTF MAN. I don't believe I deserve it. Whaaaaaatever I guess. Fuckers.

OHH. and whats with random ass girls from school talking mad shit about me?! Its fucking ridiculous. Thats high school though.

2nd semester begins next week. Senior year has gone by so fast. I can still remember my first high school crush freshman year. I was an idiot. Still am. Hahaha. Winter Formal is this friday I think, not going. I'm going to prom though...but idk, I have a feeling I won't want to when it gets closer to the date. FUCK WHAT AM I RANTING ABOUT?

I am just bored and extremely aroused trying to get my mind off it. So here's a picture of K'nuckles. Just to make myself more bummed. & show you what an awesome cat I had.

Singly

It's as if right after I got out of a relationship I was no longer invisible. When I notice a guy he actually notices me, amazing. ha. And I came to realize that I am still very much attracted to girls and I can actually get girls if I really wanted to.


But anyways, I'm so over relationships. At least for now, until I think I've found someone who is worth tying myself down for who won't fuck me over and can actually keep me satisfied. So for now, I am single and being myself. Thee only thing I must worry about now is not to get too attached to anyone, and not crush on so many people. If that makes any sense.

Finals?!

Finals this week. I NEED to pass Econ, English, Alg 1, French 2, and Digital Photo. I should probably do my Alg 1 make up work, pay my lab fee for Digital Photo, study for the Econ final, and REALLY study for my french 2 final. pourquoi je ne sais pas le francais. that probably made no sense.

My motivation: a nice shiny new laptop from my sister & a used car from my mom.
Of course I will only get those things if I graduate. (which i will..because c'mon its fucking Northview HS)



fuckfuckfuck. I'm way too lazy though.



PS: Minimum days all this week cept for Monday and Tuesday, & I don't have a 1st or 4th period meaning I get to show up late/leave early.


PPS: GH World Tour this week. I'm not sure how many ppl are coming over either, I have a feeling it will get rowdy. Oh well.

My Phones Never Last

This morning I woke up, looked at my phone, It was at the password screen. I had fallen asleep last night as it was taking a fucking hour to turn back on. Well, I entered the password then click the ball...an extra letter appeared as if i had pushed another button for the password. Well I just turned my phone off, then turned it back on. Again it did the same thing. Well I finally got my phone on and I had 6 messages, but I could not get to them! I finally figured out to use the 'enter' button, then I went on BB Messenger and tried typing something out. The letters started coming up themselves and whenever I'd try pushing a button another letter would come up. So basically for no reason I can possibly think of my BB has failed on me. I've had it since October. WTF. I've had used phones before this, about 4 which all failed on me. I just blamed them on being "old & used". Now, I'm guessing its me. Ha. I need a new phone now. I don't really care if its new or not. Just not one of those nokia ones, haha. I guess I can't be picky. FML. My BB just randomly type 'wewewewewewewewewewe' and I didn't push a button WHAT THE FUCK. It must be possesed, or something. Fuck this red blackberry pearl. AHHH. Okay, I am done ranting. For now :)


10:33am
All the buttons on my phone no longer work. Fucking great.

The L Word

I believe it was in the middle of the week, I was sitting on the comp while my mom's bf was flipping through the channels on the tv. Then I turn around and The L Word is on the tv screen. So I sit, and just stare at the screen for a few minutes. Then my moms bf looks at me and says "Are you gay?"... I look at him and think "fuck. Is it that obvious I like girls?" Then I say the stupidest thing, "Well I was with Nathan..." he looks at me and says "That doesn't mean anything" and laughs. I then continue watching The L Word. Btw, Shane isn't as hot as I thought and Jenny...is still hot, even hotter when she's a bitch. Haha. Even though her boobs aren't natural. Still drop dead gorgeous. And I know Jenny is going to die soon. FUCK ADELE. Anyways, I want to buy all the seasons :DD

My Saturday

Woke up, bummed and still very aroused. I hate being horny and not being able to do anything to get my mind off it. Not even sleep. Anyways, I sat on the computer listened to music and texted awayyy. Around noon I randomly called Alexiss to just hang out later, play GH World Tour and catch a movie. She said yes, then my mom's bf picked me up and we went to Norms. My first time. I ordered the California Burger, which had onions when I asked for none. It was okay, I finished about half, and not much of the fries either. My dumbass drank a small orange juice before I got my food, not very bright! Btw I hate how that place was built, it's just way too small. Right when I got home Alexiss was ready to be picked up, we then picked her up and played GH World Tour for maybe 2 hours. We make an awesome band btw, even though we can't do drums on medium or guitar on hard. Yes I know, amazing. Thennnnn we got dropped off at AMC 30 to catch the 4:30 showing of Underworld: The Rise of the Dycans...I mean Lycans* harharhar. Anyways we go to buy the tickets and he asks "Do you 2 have any id with you?" I say yes but only my school id and I'm 17. Alexiss doesn't have her id with her, so he looks at her and says he cannot let her in, and im saying "she really is 18" because she is but she looks 16. He can sell me a ticket, but not her? He says to get someone thats 21 to buy the tickets and they need to watch the movie with us...um we're not fucking 12. Anyways we say thank you and walk inside ticketless to see if they will quit this foolishness and give us 2 fucking tickets to a rated R movie. The woman says no, you need to have a person that is 23 years old buy the tickets and watch it with you. TWENTY FUCKING THREE? Are you kidding me?! By then we are pissed as hell wanting to blow AMC up into nothingness. Alexiss calls her mom and asks her to bring her id's so we can get into the fucking movie. Anyways, we get in and see the movie. It confused me very much because I had no idea it was in the past, before the other 2 Underworld movies. But either way, it was verrrrry good. Sonja is very fucking hot, with those pale blue eyes of course. Im going to have to say Kate Beckensale is thee hottest vampire though ;) Sooo after that we sat near coldstone waiting for my mom to pick us up (God I feel like I'm back in middle school typing "waiting for my mom to pick us up" haha). We talking anddd I found out the most wonderfullest thing! I'll put it this way though: Some guys are complete cowards, and cannot admit that they cheat. Fucking pigs. AND some girls are nothing but pathetic whores who fuck guys simply for the attention. Anyways coming Monday I believe I'm going to confront someone :)