At the Moment

I am very irritated. Impatient. & Confused.




Listening to Tegan and Sara-Living Room, with the volume on my speakers all the way up. Lacey got me into them. This song really hasn't annoyed me yet, which is surprising because I play it over and over again. I need to go to a concert SOON. Since I decided not to see theSTART earlier this month because I wasn't feeling it, all that drama started. Well, they play again in March which should be epic. Wish I could see TBM though.

I'm supposed to be babysitting my brothers while my mom and Mario go out to see a movie. But they are watching tv in the other room, because I kicked them out of the living room like a bitch. Ughh. I'm not sure what it is. But I'm just in such a bad mood. Out of nowhere I just get REALLY irritated, every little thing just builds and builds onto it. -sigh- I hate being confused and I hate being so damn impatient. I feel like I can't fucking help it. FUCKK.

Also, my phone will probably be shut off in a few hours. Or by midnight. Because they haven't paid the bill. But they are paying it tomorrow, so I'll only be w/o it for a few hours. Sucks because I don't even have a house phone right now, my mom hasn't paid the bill for that either...



On another note~


I feel like I'm going to get hurt, but I know it'd be my own fault. I don't want to stop though. I want it pretty bad. And by it, I mean...well actually I'm not exactly sure what 'it' means. Well not yet at least...