Will you drink my chemical?

I give up. Not on myself. But on you.

So glad spring break is next week. Leaving to SD. Spending time with my pregnant sister, her fiance and my brother. Oh, and I'll probably be at the beach as many times as I can...

Pst, 1 month & a little over 2 weeks til I turn 18. Sweet.


ps: make this sore throat go away & help me fix my fafsa application D:
AND help me learn patience, please.

If hello could only drop its "O"...

And then stay in the front door's way
Of your home, would you live there still?
Could that make you everything I hate?
Wait...
<3

Must buy:





One by one. Starting with thee CD's then vans then nano.

Today hasn't been that great. The only good out of today has been between 2pm to 4pm. Other than that things just keep getting shitty! Co&Ca is keeping me somewhat content. Haven't listened to 'Good Apollo I'm Burning Star, IV, Vol. 1: From Fear Through the Eyes of Madness' in a long while. I love just about every fucking song on this album. *sigh* Too bad I lost it -_-

mp3less

Don't fail me now. What will I do for the next 2 months? D:

FUCK.

Consumed

and oh so lost in my own thoughts.

My mind is constantly running, and without my ipod I cannot sleep (I lost my ipod somewhere around my 'room' on Friday). I smoked today and slept all day. Don't remember much. What a wasted day. I feel like I've dug myself in a deeper whole with only myself to blame. I've gone back on my own word. And because of that I'm more of a mess than I was before. I need something, some motivation, some guidance, a push of some sort to get my head straight and my shit together. 2 months until I turn 18, and nowhere near acting like it. I'm more irresponsible than I was when I was 16 (I'm pretty fucking sure). High school is almost over and I've let myself fall into becoming this person I'm sure I'd surely hate if I knew. I'm not sure where it started but I just stopped caring. I'm completely confused on what I want in life, or what I want now. I might just be over thinking (like I always do) but I do know I need to organize my thoughts before I drive myself insane.

ps: I've grown tired of these people. Fucking idiots. I can see right through them. They're all the same: immature, dishonest, hypocritical, annoying and extremely fucking fake.

Honestly, if I ever become just like them KILL ME.


*sigh* possibly the most ranting I've done in a while.

Yum.

$45, s'il vous plaît.

J'adore...

Interpol<3

GOD. I'M TOO FUCKING NICE. Ha, and way forgiving. Oh wells, at least I'm not a giant douche bag :)

I must apply to Citrus or Mt Sac SOON for the fall. Heh. Somewhat excited. Pretty tired of thee same shit. High school blows, and so does everyone there. Except like 2%. HAHA.

I want to learn how to play the drums. But I don't think its possible. Haha.

tastestoofizzy.

There's no promise left to break

Being pushed away once again...etc, etc.
It's a never ending story.

Just a fantasy

Fucking scumbags.
I try my best to not let myself get pissed as hell and complain like a leedo child, but fuck man. *sigh*




I want tiramisu. And some vodka wif cranberry juice<3

Él es una locura, pero no me importa.

what a song.

Even when there's blood on my hands

Last night was nice. Ended pretty early though. People are always so nice at theSTART and TBM shows. Got on le stage at the end of Shakedown! and hugged Aimee<3 OHGOODNESSFUCKINGGRACIOUS! The bassist to Roxy Epoxy & the Rebound. OMG. So gorgeous. I don't compromise. HA. I miss TBM, they might not come back...if they do I'm guessing the closest will be in Vegas. So if that happens Tim is going for sure, and if he invites me again I will try my best to go. Because I need TBM, SOON.

I feel like a open book e_e

I srsly need some fucking motivation. I've been suuuuuuper lazy, and only getting lazier. Which is not good, because I need to graduate. AND I need to keep myself busy. I don't want to gain more weight, and I've just been letting shit get to me. Over thinking and wanting something sweet. Affection. Tssss.

Maybe I should just be like Josh and leave the state, maybe even the country. Heh, I wish.



Ahh, this song. Sitting in Dwight's little white bug. On the Freeway. Wif Josh. Sober? I don't quite remember. ^_^
Hopefully we go to the beach soon.

Shake your head its empty

Loving almost every new song Metric has put up off Fantasies. Can't wait to get the album n__n

My mother tried telling me I'm not going to SD to see Bayside. Pfft. I'm not quitting ;)

Also found out my data plan on my BB will be canceled temporarily because of money problems. Meaning no instant messaging, myspace, browser, BB messenger or MMS. Just sms text. Ahh. At leeeeeaaaast its just for a while not forever.

Should be leaving to Claremont in a few, if they get the damn car keys. Hehe, I love Josh's golden curls :3 "Je veux te voir dans un film pornographique"

Reverse minimum day tomorrow. I have to wake early either way. Heh.

I SRSLY NEED TO GET MY BANGS RAZORED. I fucking hate long bangs. I should probably just buy a razor, but I'm such an idiot I'd end up cutting myself. Ha. Then again...2 of my aunts do hair so I can just learn from them on how to use a razor o_o


PSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSST. I see theSTART + Normandie tomorrow, though I do not know where I'm going to get the money for the ticket but I will get it somehow<3

where o where will the little bunny go?

Je ne sais pas! But I want it now ^_^

What a weekend. Srsly. Regretful? Neh! Hopefully Josh can fucking stay in California for more than a month at least! We're planning on going to Mexico during the summer for a few weeks. Would be amazing.

Can't fucking wait. theSTART this Wednesday, Metric is releasing Fantasies soon, TBM coming around May, Bayside in March, a little over 2 months til I turn 18 [so I can get my get my piercings, etc.], hs is almost over too, and I'll be an aunt/nina soon. And I go to Massachusetts before Sept, and hopefully Mexico (if not Mexicali :p). OH, and I MIGHT see No Doubt. Depends on how many free tickets Kay gets. We'll see.

Life is sweet.

Lazy Daisy

I need to pre-order Metric's new album n__n


Just woke up a little while ago. Disneyland tomorrow. But laundry today. Foof. These english muffins are delicious. I have only $5, what can I do with that. Oh, I really need a hair cut. Annnnddd to get mah bangs razored. Make sense? prbly not. So, I'm like almost sure I want the TBM bunny tattooed somewhere on me, for my first. Or maybe some lyrics, still thinking about it. Not sure if its going to be after or before my next piercing. Which I'm not 100% sure on what I want. Vertical labret (lip), dimples, tragus (ear), or another nose ring. I'm pretty fucking indecisive.

I'd really like a job, or something. Because having nothing to do is just making me lazy. But I prbly should just get my 2 F's up, because I really need those classes to graduate. Which I am btw, because if I didn't graduate from NHS...well, I'd be a fucking idiot.

Mmmmmm. Metric<3

Suspended

Not serving my hours. And apparently I just added on 10 hours too. It's very hard to wake up at 6am. Always late. Fuck, I have 2 F's. I hate english and govenment. Mmm. My girlfriend misses me, teh sweet :]

Ingrish muffins & raspberry preservatives are yum<3

New friend gives tattoos, and a pretty good artist.
Probably get one on my upper back, or upper thigh. Maybe before anymore piercings. Because I also want a few more piercings too.

Anyways. Most of the people that have been douche bags have came to me and apologized. Why they were even such douche bags in the first place beats me. But I'm very understanding and very forgiving. Probably makes me a weak person. Oh well.


March 11th<3

Teh Sweet.

Bear. Thee best behaved pup~

Baked potato and grilled chicken breast with some Italian seasoning.
Root Beer floats. Not too much Root Beer, and half of a banana.
Mmmmm.

Hair color didn't come out as i expected. Too dark! I'll just shower more than usual ;3


FUCK YOU FAFSA. NOT LETTING ME USE FIREFOX TO FILL THIS SHIT OUT.
either way can't find my ss #. no fwee monies for me.

And srsly *sigh* Pleeeeeeeeeeeaaaaaaase, stop sending all these scumbags my way. Over dramatic, immature, selfish, hypocritical and wayyy confused/emotional. Erh -_-


OH GOD xD
"Want a kiss?"
*puts hershey's kiss in mouth*
cleverrr.

Have I told you lately, that I love you?

You lose some...you lose some...you lose some...fuck. You gain some?
I hate being blamed for others failed friendships. Bullshit man.
Ehh.
That's high school.

Mmmmm cold Olive Garden bread. and Sandie's pecan cookies.

So lazy, I haven't showered and I'm leaving at 1pm. Wahwahwah.

But hey. I'm finally going to concerrttt wif mah sis. In May, in San Diego.

So many lovely things coming up, how can I possibly be bummed<3