So far this year

I've grown not to give a fuck. I have a few people to thank for that. Oh, and myself.

But Saturday was fun, though I made a fool of myself a bit. And tried some new things! Ha. Everyone got a hug from Terry! Haha. Well, my senior prom is around the corner. Sweet. I still need a dress though. Can't wait til prom, and after prom ;)! Then Grad Nite, then its pretty much over. Fiiiiinally.

I need a fucking mp3 player. I'm dying w/o one. AND a show. PLEEEEEEEAAASE.

PS: Last night was incredible. xD

Plan.

Should work. Better work. :)

I need to take that online french test too. Graduating fer sure.

Leather

-ish pants. And sandals. Girly. About to smoke on a roof, too. Weird night.

Nos, bud, and joose. Something new please.

I want to see Bayside, now.

Whoa.

:3



I am a fucking idiot. I need to listen to TBM more.

Long-overdue

This shouldn't affect me anymore. But it does. It hurts, a lot. But fuck, I feel as if there's absolutely nothing I can do. I have been trying to be soooo optimistic, and keep myself busy. And trying to get over it just makes it last longer. Or so it seems.

Now I listen to a few songs off Shudder before I get in the shower. Then sleep.

AND I MISS MY KITTY DEARLY.

SHITFUCKSHITFUCK

I have thee biggest headache. *sigh* People need to go away. Always wanting something from me.

I've finally decided to get my shit together. During the week I will be at the office from 7:15am-8:35am serving my detention. That will count as 2 hours, and one after school. Then 4 hours on Saturday at SWAP. Should be able to go to prom if I do that for 3 weeks. If not I still get Gradnight and get to walk. Also need to bring up my Government grade. The hard part is getting to school at 7:15am.
Oh, and I'm only drinking water and juice, milk sometimes. Gave up fatty foods too. Going running at night, sit-ups and side bends afterward. :p

Girlfriend was going to teach me how to play drums. Now, things aren't looking so good with her. So, probably not -_-

Jesus Fucking Christ. I feel like I am never going to get over this bullshit. I've tried everything. Hopefully time will help it wither away.



I need my mother fucking license already.

In a wave you say goodbye...

Wrong cove. Then we went to the right one. Then the battery died, missed the seals. Bummer.

I have done nothing productive here in SD. I don't have to do much, besides take Bear outside to pee. Gained a bit of weight *sigh*. Weird. I am constantly gaining and losing weight. I am on a diet starting...now. Just water and fruit, okay not just fruit...but something like that. Haha. Let's see how long I last. D:

ANYWAYS. Every birthday til I was bout 13 I wanted to go to Sea World. Always asked my mom like a month before my birthday if we could go for my birthday. Never happened, ha. So I eventually caught on, and stopped asking. I am slow. So tomorrow we are going to Sea World, just for the hell of it. -_- Not all that excited. Honestly rather go to the beach...

BB Pearl 8100

Piece of crap. Now wonder they no longer have them in T-mobile stores. My trackball is fucked up already. Won't click/select anything. First got the phone in October, and was acting up [way more than this time] so we got a new one shipped. I have only had the phone for 2 months now. Fucking ridiculous. I have no money to get a new one. So til 2010 I will have to put up with this same model. -_-

Anyways, I need to get packing. Leaving for SD in maybe an hour or less!

:)

Yes, reary.

Adventureland

I'll take the 2 on the right, please :D

My baby girl took me out last night. Midnight showing of 'Adventureland'. Knew I'd like the movie either way since Kristen Stewart is in it, but didn't think that much of it though. Loved the movie. Definitely worth watching again. Especially since we didn't get sound for about 5 minutes in the middle of the movie -_-

Boo. My sore throat is coming back. That agua de fresca was still worth it, ha. One of the reasons why I love my grandma being over while my mom is away. Hopefully my brother and grandma leave for her house, so then I can finally go out and if not go out then have the place to myself. FUCK YEAH. Still have Kaylan's bud under my bed in my Hello Kitty bag hehe. Reminds me, I need to get money by tomorrow if I want hash for SD!:3 Ah, shit. Just remembered. Must take 15 photos over spring break. T_T

Hrm. Wednesday night got that weird pressure in my chest, twice. Each time lasted about 5 minutes, felt longer though. Had a hard time breathing, I'm guessing its just over stress, but I don't know since I haven't been over-thinking anything much -_- Well hopefully it won't happen again, well at least just not anytime soon. I would be okay if it happened again but just in like a month, because I think twice in one night is enough, haha.