Explode

Everything is so dirty. No one cleans. NO ONE. Its so fucking unfair. I'm the one thats supposed to clean everything. I am not the only one that lives here. I clean, shortly after its dirty, again. Whats the fucking point? Especially when NO ONE helps me. Fuck living here.

Douchbagedness

I don't mean to come off or act that way..but I don't like to be insulted, yelled at or told what to do. Honestly, who does? It bothers the fuck out of me. Even if you are close family. I am going to college and doing what I need to do. I am not an alcoholic or a drug addict. But I'll stop when I please. So basically: My choices, my consequences. DUH.

PS-$109 for ONE class at Citrus. WOOT -_-

Another flashing chance at bliss..

I've found it harder and harder to get my thoughts down lately. I love to just vent. And get what I feel out..into solid visible words. I find it difficult to stay on one..idea..thought..feeling...I cannot stop listening to The Doors. Jim Morrison fascinates me. I can be completely sober and just get the fucking chills listening to his words. This summer has been short. But I've done much. College is around the corner and then begins..all sorts of changes..though I hope. Must grow out of this.."codependency"? Ruining myself. I have wants. Just need some direction..inspiration..will power..instruction? Argghhh. Let's see how well this fall goes.

PS-Learning guitar, its happening.

How I love to give in.

Currently listening to: Empty~Metric

Something amazing happened to me last night. I believe it was..karma? Or not. Either way, it was one of the dumbest decisions a guy can make. Good luck, and good riddance.

Le sigh..

Goodness, I need a better goal in life.

Well, this situation has gotten me back into Metric and Bayside. Meaning listening to them constantly..over and over again.

I should be leaving to the beach shortly. Huntington. Yes, bonfire! Going with some friends I haven't seen in ages [or so it seems].




PS: I'm bitter as hell. Obviously.

"We need to talk."

DOUCHER. I hate ppl and their stupidity. Don't go into something, or get involved with someone if you have BAGGAGE. T_T

(666)666-6666

Sitting on Lacey's bed. She's to my right on her laptop, I'm to her left listening to my zune and texting. Her phone starts ringing 'Skate in the Night' ringtone plays. Lacey picks up her phone we both look at the number and look at each other. The number reads: (666)666-666. I shit you not. She laughs and I do too [thinking its telemarker shit or something dumb]. She answers and you can hear breathing and someone whispering her name. They hang up. She tries to call back "Your call cannot be completed as dialed". We're fucking shitting bricks. Less than an hour later, they call again. She puts it on speaker and all you hear is heavy breathing. CREEPY AS FUCK. They stay on for a few seconds and hang up. She again tries to call back "Your call cannot be completed as dialed". No fucking joke. Didn't sleep til fucking 6am. -_-

Sickly sweet

DAMN. It's almost too good to be true...

Where is my mind?

Crushin'
And believe I just got the kick to the curb on myspace. Yes, myspace. That happens ALL TOO OFTEN. Hmm, I just noticed my windows are open..and I live in an apartment..I've been blasting music and singing at the top of my lungs..woops T_T

I need to take my placement test for Citrus. I start in the fall. Shite.

Blows my mind.

Radiohead is so damn good. Excited to borrow Thom Yorke's solo album from Lou. Fuck.

Graduate friday. Funny how some people just can't take a goddamn hint. Or hints. -_-

Phil might go to Paris this summer. I should tag along.

Boy oh boy

Although I say I do hate all the kiddies that go to Northview HS..I do have love for the class of 2009. Many have touched me and made high school bearable. Fuck you douchers who constantly talk shit about Covina kids. I love 'em. (Except the really scummie ones, ha) We made it. ^_^

ps. The Hangover is a hilarious movie. Classic. Go watch. NOW.

Shite.

Apparently I can do better..but can't always go off what ppl say, heard..from other ppl..

Anyways, last day of high school today. I just need a job now. License this summer. Citrus in the fall..I'll feel like a big girl.

Last Night

Went up to 'the platform' ended up not being able to get up there because they fixed the fence and put barbwire up. So we went passed this little brick wall with some brick pillars and Lace, Ray and those guys drank some brew. I smoked a bit. Drunken Ray, Bryan, and his tall friend decided to try to get to the platform and on the ladder spotted cop cars. They stumbled around and tried to hide in some bushes but failed. Ray was talking shit to the cops. "Hey I get paid to wear these shorts." Haha. Lacey, Daniel, some guy from florida and I were hiding behind the bricks. Posted for about 10 minutes. Then the cops left, didn't see us or bother to search Ray and them and they had bud on them. Haha. Got in the cars went to Daniel's..he has a chinchilla :x Then later attempted a beer run and failed. Also attempted to dine n dash but that guy from florida was talking very loud about it, so we ended up paying. -_- Oh, but that brownie a la mode was dericious. Too bad I had to pay for it.

Pst..So stoked for Lacey's grad party. Hopefully it'll happen then. <3

Dear whorey-douchebag,

I do not wish to continue associate with you any longer. You talk maaaaad shit about your so-called "friends" and even your family. You are a hypocrite, and constantly use people. You are not original, nor are you real in any way. You cannot keep your mouth shut for shit, nor can you keep your legs closed. Go fuck all the scumbags of the world (as you do already), then cry later for not being "girlfriend material". HA.

PS: Thanks for spreading those rumors about me. Too bad you're still the one with the bad reputation.

Sincerely,
Terry Ramirez

I like me some...Canadian.

I want to see Nick and Norah's Infinite Playlist, nowz. o_o

- - - - - - - - - - - - - - -

5 days of high school left. teh sweet.

ps:
"Must be a devil between us
or whores in my head
whores at my door
whore in my bed
but hey
where
have you
been
if you go i will surely die

we're chained..."


T_T is liek, getting knocked up thee new trend?

Sexy

Should've taken a listen sooner. Boy was I missing out. o_O



PS: Less than 2 weeks of school left.

"Every living creature on earth dies alone."

"Dear Roberta Sparrow, I have reached the end of your book and... there are so many things that I need to ask you. Sometimes I'm afraid of what you might tell me. Sometimes I'm afraid that you'll tell me that this is not a work of fiction. I can only hope that the answers will come to me in my sleep. I hope that when the world comes to an end, I can breathe a sigh of relief, because there will be so much to look forward to."

DD GIVES ME THE CHILLS<3

I has paws.

Lacey did 'em for me. Don't know if I want to fill them in, just black or color. Thursday I should get them done, or just get another tattoo. Maybe just get my bunny done.

S. Darko

FAILFAILFAILFAIL. Some good songs in the movie, that's about it. But so happy I finally have Donnie Darko on DVD ^_^

A cupcake...

never looked so good :]
I would love to see her live, just to watch her perform. I mean her music is good too, but her costumes and shit are amazing<3

YUM

Oranges are magical.

Sick and feeling like crap then I ate an orange and felt SO much better. Crazy. :B

So little tyme, about 4 weeks left. Still need to get my cap and gown, aaaaand my yearbook.

I've applied to 3 places so far, and will turn in 3 applications today. Hopefully get hired somewhere. I turn 18 in 2 days which is good. I wonder how much home depot pays...My nose feels funny. Took out my septum ring b/c I'm turning in those applications.

Wednesday I get my first tattoo. I've already came up with a few other ideas too =^.^=



Srsly fuck Oprah, and those stupid cunts that talk about how they got sexually abused by their "fathers". And how they know their "fathers" love them. WTF IS WRONG WITH..PEOPLE.

This one's got whiskers...

That sammich waz deerishes.

Need to pick up my prom dress from the cleaners by 5pm. I still need to buy the pale pink nail polish and the clear coat. Possibly get something to wear in my hair, not sure what else is left to buy...Oh! And the jooses :)

So far this summer: Metric, Bayside (Warper Tour), Comic-con, and most likely theSTART...& my license ^_^
AND hopefully get a fucking job by the end of summer. Still waiting for FASFA to send me a letter! Shiiiiiiett.

I want some edibles.

Where the fuck is the reason?

Give me all the answers before I dig myself in a deeper hole.

18 in 2 weeks. I feel like a child.



~I JUST WANT A FUCKING KITTY
& that one person that I can always talk to about anything anywhere anytime...
THEN, I'LL BE OH SO CONTENT.

Oh, and a mp3 player would also be fucking great to have.

So far this year

I've grown not to give a fuck. I have a few people to thank for that. Oh, and myself.

But Saturday was fun, though I made a fool of myself a bit. And tried some new things! Ha. Everyone got a hug from Terry! Haha. Well, my senior prom is around the corner. Sweet. I still need a dress though. Can't wait til prom, and after prom ;)! Then Grad Nite, then its pretty much over. Fiiiiinally.

I need a fucking mp3 player. I'm dying w/o one. AND a show. PLEEEEEEEAAASE.

PS: Last night was incredible. xD

Plan.

Should work. Better work. :)

I need to take that online french test too. Graduating fer sure.

Leather

-ish pants. And sandals. Girly. About to smoke on a roof, too. Weird night.

Nos, bud, and joose. Something new please.

I want to see Bayside, now.

Whoa.

:3



I am a fucking idiot. I need to listen to TBM more.

Long-overdue

This shouldn't affect me anymore. But it does. It hurts, a lot. But fuck, I feel as if there's absolutely nothing I can do. I have been trying to be soooo optimistic, and keep myself busy. And trying to get over it just makes it last longer. Or so it seems.

Now I listen to a few songs off Shudder before I get in the shower. Then sleep.

AND I MISS MY KITTY DEARLY.

SHITFUCKSHITFUCK

I have thee biggest headache. *sigh* People need to go away. Always wanting something from me.

I've finally decided to get my shit together. During the week I will be at the office from 7:15am-8:35am serving my detention. That will count as 2 hours, and one after school. Then 4 hours on Saturday at SWAP. Should be able to go to prom if I do that for 3 weeks. If not I still get Gradnight and get to walk. Also need to bring up my Government grade. The hard part is getting to school at 7:15am.
Oh, and I'm only drinking water and juice, milk sometimes. Gave up fatty foods too. Going running at night, sit-ups and side bends afterward. :p

Girlfriend was going to teach me how to play drums. Now, things aren't looking so good with her. So, probably not -_-

Jesus Fucking Christ. I feel like I am never going to get over this bullshit. I've tried everything. Hopefully time will help it wither away.



I need my mother fucking license already.

In a wave you say goodbye...

Wrong cove. Then we went to the right one. Then the battery died, missed the seals. Bummer.

I have done nothing productive here in SD. I don't have to do much, besides take Bear outside to pee. Gained a bit of weight *sigh*. Weird. I am constantly gaining and losing weight. I am on a diet starting...now. Just water and fruit, okay not just fruit...but something like that. Haha. Let's see how long I last. D:

ANYWAYS. Every birthday til I was bout 13 I wanted to go to Sea World. Always asked my mom like a month before my birthday if we could go for my birthday. Never happened, ha. So I eventually caught on, and stopped asking. I am slow. So tomorrow we are going to Sea World, just for the hell of it. -_- Not all that excited. Honestly rather go to the beach...

BB Pearl 8100

Piece of crap. Now wonder they no longer have them in T-mobile stores. My trackball is fucked up already. Won't click/select anything. First got the phone in October, and was acting up [way more than this time] so we got a new one shipped. I have only had the phone for 2 months now. Fucking ridiculous. I have no money to get a new one. So til 2010 I will have to put up with this same model. -_-

Anyways, I need to get packing. Leaving for SD in maybe an hour or less!

:)

Yes, reary.

Adventureland

I'll take the 2 on the right, please :D

My baby girl took me out last night. Midnight showing of 'Adventureland'. Knew I'd like the movie either way since Kristen Stewart is in it, but didn't think that much of it though. Loved the movie. Definitely worth watching again. Especially since we didn't get sound for about 5 minutes in the middle of the movie -_-

Boo. My sore throat is coming back. That agua de fresca was still worth it, ha. One of the reasons why I love my grandma being over while my mom is away. Hopefully my brother and grandma leave for her house, so then I can finally go out and if not go out then have the place to myself. FUCK YEAH. Still have Kaylan's bud under my bed in my Hello Kitty bag hehe. Reminds me, I need to get money by tomorrow if I want hash for SD!:3 Ah, shit. Just remembered. Must take 15 photos over spring break. T_T

Hrm. Wednesday night got that weird pressure in my chest, twice. Each time lasted about 5 minutes, felt longer though. Had a hard time breathing, I'm guessing its just over stress, but I don't know since I haven't been over-thinking anything much -_- Well hopefully it won't happen again, well at least just not anytime soon. I would be okay if it happened again but just in like a month, because I think twice in one night is enough, haha.

Will you drink my chemical?

I give up. Not on myself. But on you.

So glad spring break is next week. Leaving to SD. Spending time with my pregnant sister, her fiance and my brother. Oh, and I'll probably be at the beach as many times as I can...

Pst, 1 month & a little over 2 weeks til I turn 18. Sweet.


ps: make this sore throat go away & help me fix my fafsa application D:
AND help me learn patience, please.

If hello could only drop its "O"...

And then stay in the front door's way
Of your home, would you live there still?
Could that make you everything I hate?
Wait...
<3

Must buy:





One by one. Starting with thee CD's then vans then nano.

Today hasn't been that great. The only good out of today has been between 2pm to 4pm. Other than that things just keep getting shitty! Co&Ca is keeping me somewhat content. Haven't listened to 'Good Apollo I'm Burning Star, IV, Vol. 1: From Fear Through the Eyes of Madness' in a long while. I love just about every fucking song on this album. *sigh* Too bad I lost it -_-

mp3less

Don't fail me now. What will I do for the next 2 months? D:

FUCK.

Consumed

and oh so lost in my own thoughts.

My mind is constantly running, and without my ipod I cannot sleep (I lost my ipod somewhere around my 'room' on Friday). I smoked today and slept all day. Don't remember much. What a wasted day. I feel like I've dug myself in a deeper whole with only myself to blame. I've gone back on my own word. And because of that I'm more of a mess than I was before. I need something, some motivation, some guidance, a push of some sort to get my head straight and my shit together. 2 months until I turn 18, and nowhere near acting like it. I'm more irresponsible than I was when I was 16 (I'm pretty fucking sure). High school is almost over and I've let myself fall into becoming this person I'm sure I'd surely hate if I knew. I'm not sure where it started but I just stopped caring. I'm completely confused on what I want in life, or what I want now. I might just be over thinking (like I always do) but I do know I need to organize my thoughts before I drive myself insane.

ps: I've grown tired of these people. Fucking idiots. I can see right through them. They're all the same: immature, dishonest, hypocritical, annoying and extremely fucking fake.

Honestly, if I ever become just like them KILL ME.


*sigh* possibly the most ranting I've done in a while.

Yum.

$45, s'il vous plaît.

J'adore...

Interpol<3

GOD. I'M TOO FUCKING NICE. Ha, and way forgiving. Oh wells, at least I'm not a giant douche bag :)

I must apply to Citrus or Mt Sac SOON for the fall. Heh. Somewhat excited. Pretty tired of thee same shit. High school blows, and so does everyone there. Except like 2%. HAHA.

I want to learn how to play the drums. But I don't think its possible. Haha.

tastestoofizzy.

There's no promise left to break

Being pushed away once again...etc, etc.
It's a never ending story.

Just a fantasy

Fucking scumbags.
I try my best to not let myself get pissed as hell and complain like a leedo child, but fuck man. *sigh*




I want tiramisu. And some vodka wif cranberry juice<3

Él es una locura, pero no me importa.

what a song.

Even when there's blood on my hands

Last night was nice. Ended pretty early though. People are always so nice at theSTART and TBM shows. Got on le stage at the end of Shakedown! and hugged Aimee<3 OHGOODNESSFUCKINGGRACIOUS! The bassist to Roxy Epoxy & the Rebound. OMG. So gorgeous. I don't compromise. HA. I miss TBM, they might not come back...if they do I'm guessing the closest will be in Vegas. So if that happens Tim is going for sure, and if he invites me again I will try my best to go. Because I need TBM, SOON.

I feel like a open book e_e

I srsly need some fucking motivation. I've been suuuuuuper lazy, and only getting lazier. Which is not good, because I need to graduate. AND I need to keep myself busy. I don't want to gain more weight, and I've just been letting shit get to me. Over thinking and wanting something sweet. Affection. Tssss.

Maybe I should just be like Josh and leave the state, maybe even the country. Heh, I wish.



Ahh, this song. Sitting in Dwight's little white bug. On the Freeway. Wif Josh. Sober? I don't quite remember. ^_^
Hopefully we go to the beach soon.

Shake your head its empty

Loving almost every new song Metric has put up off Fantasies. Can't wait to get the album n__n

My mother tried telling me I'm not going to SD to see Bayside. Pfft. I'm not quitting ;)

Also found out my data plan on my BB will be canceled temporarily because of money problems. Meaning no instant messaging, myspace, browser, BB messenger or MMS. Just sms text. Ahh. At leeeeeaaaast its just for a while not forever.

Should be leaving to Claremont in a few, if they get the damn car keys. Hehe, I love Josh's golden curls :3 "Je veux te voir dans un film pornographique"

Reverse minimum day tomorrow. I have to wake early either way. Heh.

I SRSLY NEED TO GET MY BANGS RAZORED. I fucking hate long bangs. I should probably just buy a razor, but I'm such an idiot I'd end up cutting myself. Ha. Then again...2 of my aunts do hair so I can just learn from them on how to use a razor o_o


PSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSST. I see theSTART + Normandie tomorrow, though I do not know where I'm going to get the money for the ticket but I will get it somehow<3

where o where will the little bunny go?

Je ne sais pas! But I want it now ^_^

What a weekend. Srsly. Regretful? Neh! Hopefully Josh can fucking stay in California for more than a month at least! We're planning on going to Mexico during the summer for a few weeks. Would be amazing.

Can't fucking wait. theSTART this Wednesday, Metric is releasing Fantasies soon, TBM coming around May, Bayside in March, a little over 2 months til I turn 18 [so I can get my get my piercings, etc.], hs is almost over too, and I'll be an aunt/nina soon. And I go to Massachusetts before Sept, and hopefully Mexico (if not Mexicali :p). OH, and I MIGHT see No Doubt. Depends on how many free tickets Kay gets. We'll see.

Life is sweet.

Lazy Daisy

I need to pre-order Metric's new album n__n


Just woke up a little while ago. Disneyland tomorrow. But laundry today. Foof. These english muffins are delicious. I have only $5, what can I do with that. Oh, I really need a hair cut. Annnnddd to get mah bangs razored. Make sense? prbly not. So, I'm like almost sure I want the TBM bunny tattooed somewhere on me, for my first. Or maybe some lyrics, still thinking about it. Not sure if its going to be after or before my next piercing. Which I'm not 100% sure on what I want. Vertical labret (lip), dimples, tragus (ear), or another nose ring. I'm pretty fucking indecisive.

I'd really like a job, or something. Because having nothing to do is just making me lazy. But I prbly should just get my 2 F's up, because I really need those classes to graduate. Which I am btw, because if I didn't graduate from NHS...well, I'd be a fucking idiot.

Mmmmmm. Metric<3

Suspended

Not serving my hours. And apparently I just added on 10 hours too. It's very hard to wake up at 6am. Always late. Fuck, I have 2 F's. I hate english and govenment. Mmm. My girlfriend misses me, teh sweet :]

Ingrish muffins & raspberry preservatives are yum<3

New friend gives tattoos, and a pretty good artist.
Probably get one on my upper back, or upper thigh. Maybe before anymore piercings. Because I also want a few more piercings too.

Anyways. Most of the people that have been douche bags have came to me and apologized. Why they were even such douche bags in the first place beats me. But I'm very understanding and very forgiving. Probably makes me a weak person. Oh well.


March 11th<3

Teh Sweet.

Bear. Thee best behaved pup~

Baked potato and grilled chicken breast with some Italian seasoning.
Root Beer floats. Not too much Root Beer, and half of a banana.
Mmmmm.

Hair color didn't come out as i expected. Too dark! I'll just shower more than usual ;3


FUCK YOU FAFSA. NOT LETTING ME USE FIREFOX TO FILL THIS SHIT OUT.
either way can't find my ss #. no fwee monies for me.

And srsly *sigh* Pleeeeeeeeeeeaaaaaaase, stop sending all these scumbags my way. Over dramatic, immature, selfish, hypocritical and wayyy confused/emotional. Erh -_-


OH GOD xD
"Want a kiss?"
*puts hershey's kiss in mouth*
cleverrr.

Have I told you lately, that I love you?

You lose some...you lose some...you lose some...fuck. You gain some?
I hate being blamed for others failed friendships. Bullshit man.
Ehh.
That's high school.

Mmmmm cold Olive Garden bread. and Sandie's pecan cookies.

So lazy, I haven't showered and I'm leaving at 1pm. Wahwahwah.

But hey. I'm finally going to concerrttt wif mah sis. In May, in San Diego.

So many lovely things coming up, how can I possibly be bummed<3

*sigh*

Guilt. Such a great feeling isn't it? ._______.


Mah phones disconnected. Sweeeeeeeeeet punishment.
Because, liek I don't turn 18 in 2 months and 2 weeks anyways.

Well. I made friend & lost friend.
And watched "Twisted Tempations" & ate beef jerky. HARHARHAR.



And now I'm being forced to watch my sister's DVD of her ultra sound. Creeeeeeeepy.


BUT HEY. OLIVE GARDEN TODAY. MMM.

Aw.

Negative fish, negative tree. haa.

Smitten

I sit here listening to "The Velourium Camper II: Backend of Forever" while eating some fake lasagna.

I CRAVE TIRAMISU.

Mmmm. I would love to see Co&Ca comic books again. Fucking amazing.

I have a headache. I wish to sleep a few hours, but I'm leaving for Keegan's house in less than 30 minutes.


Anyways. Tonight should be fantastical.



PS: I need a good fucking laugh, haven't had one lately. 'Cept thee daily laughs I share with Lacey<3

(pssst. i makes no sense and always cut myself shaving mah legs -_-)

Buttons

Finally saw Coraline. Last day in 3D @ Edwards too. It was amazing. Just like expected. Not for children though, haha. Weird but epic. Didn't know Dakota Fanning was the voice of Coraline. Anyways. The preview to "9" looked interesting, and "Welcome Home" was used in the preview so now I'm more interested in thee movie (which makes no sense but whateverr). AND now I'm wishing I would have never lost "Good Apollo, I'm Burning Star IV, Volume One: From Fear Through the Eyes of Madness". FML. Maybe if we didn't move so much. Hmm, maybe I should get their latest album. Maybe not.

Ohs, today we presented our prejudice photos. Good thing I got 3 slips to go to counseling then to attendance, because I haven't typed my artist statement. I fail with words. SRSLY. If you couldn't already tell ><;


My sister came up from San Diego. She's going to be here til Sunday. I'm not sure if the plans for Keegan's Dad's house are going to work out. Many people are misunderstanding things so yep. Oh well, I can spend time with my sister..who is so emotional right now, and so my amazing mother can favor her and get mad at me for every little thing :D

"You're sleeping on the futon with me right?"
"Yeah"
"Okay"
"Oh, don't get freaked out if the baby kicks you at night"
"Oh yes he is really going to kick me Lisa"
"Well he kicks Matt at night"
"I'm not going to be hugging you or be super close to you tard"
"Still. You'll probably feel him kick"
"Creepy"

:3

I wish I could eat the salt off of your lost faded lips

très mignonne.
Not my prejudice photo. Shall upload it tomorrow if I remember.


I cannot stop listening to Interpol. I'm fascinated.
These past few weeks have been..weird. But I feel amazing.

One thing that has been bothering me. Guys thinking they're going to get something from me. Ha. All I'm offering if friendship. NOTHING ELSE. It no longer interests me.


FUCK. I'm supposed to go running in a few. But I'm so lazy, and sleepy and full.


psssssssssst.

Finally arrived. Let's see how long this one will last.

Sickness was fixing me some

Coughed out my heart in the last stall. Now that the damage is done. I never miss it at all.~
This weekend. Keegan's dad's house in Azusa Canyon. Adam, AJ, Keegan, Eddie, and the rest of those niggas. Haven't hung out with them in a while. Should be fun. I'm going to be so fucking entertained. Haa.

March:
TheSTART @ The Knitting Factory

April:
Sister weds
Metric releases album and tour dates

May:
Turn 18
TBM comes to california
Becomes an aunt
Prom

June:
Graduation & all that good stuff!

Please be promp and courteous.

REMOVE CLOTHING FROM WASHERS AND DRYERS QUICKLY.
Fuck. What else could that possible mean?! ><;

Well as I sat on a washer waiting for a dryer to be unoccupied (while listening to thee same sad song I've been listening to all day) a man in a leather jacket asked me what time the laundry room closes while his boyfriend (I'm assuming) stands behind him with a basket . I said 9pm but its still open and I have to dry implying its okay to wash a load. His boyfriend says "no don't do it" and then he says all cute like "well that man there is going to put a load in" and his boyfriend repeats "no don't do it, just hand wash them" and then the other says "I don't want to hand wash them". They say thank you and walk away. They both looked over 35 years old. Such a cute gay couple. I'm horrible at explaining and my memory is that of goldfish. But hey, I'm not as bitter now.

Hah. During 7th Joe and Clarence were trying to persuade me to "get with a nigga". O_o

Mind Power

todays accomplishments:
-Silly pictures with michy :D
-Getting back my old ass high top vans
-Giving the kiddies something to talk about on myspace
-This amazing sammich (bread, sour cream, ham, avocatos, and queso fresco)
-AND OF COURSE WHAT I DO EVERYDAY fucking laundry.

Opheliac

I'm not for you
You're not for me
I'll kill you first
You wait and see
You devil undercover
You're not a prince
You're not a friend
You're just a child
And in the end
You're one more selfish lover~
Emilie Autumn. Cute.

I've reached a new level of weird :3

My ipod is about to die. NOOOOOOOOO. Now I must wait 45 minutes til I can go to sleep, because I cannot sleep without music. Music helps keep me restrained.

Buy me a hermit crab preez.

I hate touch screen phones. I'm using one to type this all outttttt. Fuck I'm sleepy and wanting more in life for I am going insane. But then again who doesn't/isn't? I make no sense.

I NEED A BREEEEEAAAAAAAAAAKK. From reality.

If only I was as happy as these cute oranges.

Sunday

Aunt picked me up. As usual she gave me that little speech about stick to my education fuck men they're worthless and to find my own happiness. She's so bitter. Cannot blame her though. Then she told me she tried getting a job at the morgue before she became a teacher, but she had to go to some special school so it didn't happen. But said they get paid good money and maybe I should consider it. Ha. Weird.

I hate black socks. They make my feet look all dirty.
I wish I knew how to use a razor. My bangs need a trim.

I'm bitter as hell.
I have a headache and I want to shower.
And I still have another bathroom to clean.


I'm eating all my cousin's banana nut muffin's. I want fat burger but we're eating at King Taco.

Tiny wrists

Bracelets and watches don't always fit. A watch my mom bought me kept falling off so I cannot wear it, and I got a small braided bracelet at forever 21 which slips right off :I

Woke up around 11am, then started walking to le mall around 1pm. Saw Raymundo and Dom at Gamestop. Street Fighter Contest, ha. Twas nice. I bought a few things. Tank top, reg t-shirt, and hoodie. I love the acid washed look. My mom got me a ring and purse from Sanrio, and Harajuku Lovers perfume (G). I love Wetzel Pretzel & Round Table Pizza. Yep.

Hung out with Eric yesterday. Those co&ca shirts, freshman year man haha. A trip. Great memories though. All coming to an end in less than 4 months. Grad Night is June 12th I think, I'm very forgetful -_-

I'm listening to Good Old War "Weak Man". It was making me go crazy yesterday, such a sound. Ha! So sweeeeeeeeet.

Who the hell decided to make movies of torture and show them in theaters?! Its a bit disturbing to know Hostel made to 3, and Saw made it all the way to 5. Ahh. My stomach. AND they banned Zach & Miri Make a Porno in theaters in Salt Lake City. Tssss.

I don't even know what I'm talking about anymore. All I know:
Tomorrow I'm going to my aunts tomorrow to help her clean, why I said yes I still don't know.
Monday I'm starting a box in Woodshop.

People are douche bags. Men are horny bastards. Girls are over dramatic tards. Fuck heart breaks. Drinking is fucking stupid. Smoking is pointless. Relationships are shit. Sex just makes things complicated, unless its with the one you're married to.
None of it is worth it.

My biggest problem. I overthink. Everything.



Now, I listen to Normandie. Can't get enough of Aimee Echo.
March 11th, going to be amazing. Maybe she'll do the splits.


Took me 2 hours to finish this fucking post.

Life is sweet

when you're beat on your knees!



Could Aimee Echo be anymore amazing?

theSTART & Normandie
March 11th. Cannot wait.

Corn Flakes

are delicious. And there is sugar all over my left sock.


I find myself completely dumbfounded. But. I am definitely over guys. Cuddling and all. Just not what I need. Also, its much more simple. I'm also very happy that I have more self control. I've found out so many things lately, its odd. I'm not liking the attention though. Like I said before, being invisible. So much better.



I'm tired as hell but my mind won't shut off.




Things to look forward to:
theSTART @ The Knitting Factory March 11th
Metric release new album and tour dates in April
The Birthday Massacre USA tour dates to be released soon



I have way too much free time. Its driving me insane. I need a job. I need to accomplish something soon. I wish I was still in water polo and had that ceramics class. Life isn't interesting at the moment. I wish to wear my headphones all day and listen to whatever 120 songs I can fit in my stick of gum ipod. I think I shall do that now. I'm cold anyways, my legs ache a lot. Fuck. Well my bed looks comforting. Night.

You can go suck a fuck.

Fuck I'm deaf. Music was way too loud. But not loud enough.
This music, is making it worse but I can't stop listening. I've been reading a lot of song lyrics lately. More than usual. Hmm, I need sushi. And something to do tonight for I am losing my mind here...


I miss SV. Somewhat. Maybe because I didn't know anyone there, except for like 10 people. I think it was better to be invisible. haaa.



Nostalgic.


Let's cuddle & watch movies.

that would be so fucking awesooooooome right now.









Pssssssst. I want to take a ceramics class.

It makes no fuckin sense!

I LOVE YOU. YES, YOUUUUUU.




Oranges, paint, a field, and a fancy camera. Thats all I got to work with. I have a tiny brain.

Look in my eyes boy. Nothing like yours now.

I'm basically putting myself through hell right now reminding myself of what was by listening to some music. Bad idea? Maybe not. We'll see. But these past few days have been horrible, and nothing seems to get better. I feel like I'm keeping too much inside. I'm feeling so many things, and I can't make up my mind..though its been made up already. If that makes any sense...



*gasp* TBM is having another USA tour, with I am Ghost -_- Oh, well. Maybe their opening bands won't fail as much as last time. Being spit on isn't very pleasant. But as long as I see TBM, and soon, I'll be oh so very happy~

Unravel

Well today was rather odd. I'm somewhat bummed. But not too much. I'm surprised, with a lot. and with myself. I handled things better then I thought I could've. Fucking amazing. What a change. But its not over yet, oh noes...my stomach still feels like its in knots. Still so much to say, but I just can't find the words.

I'm oh so very indecisive. Trusting. and Forgiving. Shiiiiiiiettt. Always get myself into trouble, and never learn. Til now n__n ? heh


Ohhh. Searched for Donnie Darko at WalMart today, not in stock I'm guessing, could've sworn I've seen it there. Well, I will get it at Best Buy. And I searched for the L word too! None of the seasons are there, so fucking odd cuz they have The Tudors, Weeds, and Diary of a Call Girl. Hrrm, besstt buyy. I bought Pan's Labyrinth pretty damn epic. and yes finally. ANASTASIA. My favorite animated child princess movie or whatever you call it. Prbly watching one of them tomorrow if I don't end up going to Pinkberry with Ray, or if I don't go running with Adam -_-


I still cannot get my damn computer to read the cd. I'm going old school and using my cd player just to listen to the whole cd n___n cuz i'm currently in love with the deftones.


AH, FUCK YES! Metric is releasing a new album in April, and announcing tour dates!<3

Are you cutting me out now, after crawling inside?

Woke up early today. Amazing. Srsly. Been listening to music since I've woken up. Singing as a million things run through my mind...
Didn't go to 2nd again. Horrible. Over 18hrs of detention. Well, only 4 days of school this week. Should go by rather quickly. Oh, I have to start a project for woodshop. Hrm, something somewhat simple since I haven't used those machines since freshman year. Fuuuuuuuuuuck. Just remembered, photo due this Thursday and I have absolutely no idea what to shoot for prejudice. e_e
Ah, grades just came in. 1st semester:
Digital Photo D
French C
English C+
Econ C-
Alg 1 C

A lot better than last years. Somewhat. I could've gotten an A in digital photo, but I was always late and absent. Easy semester, I'm just lazy as hell ><;


Since its been raining, I cannot run. So I will have to change my eating habits. And drink more water. But still run when I can.

Oh, hopefully the guys come up with a trip soon. Camping, or something. Prbly depends on the rain :I

Ahh. I crave seafood bad. Sushi sounds nice too. Mmm. Maybe this weekend n_n

Goodness. I am in love with female singers. I'm not sure what it is.



Well, I leave for school in less than 10 minutes. Hopefully today is a good day, I've been needing a good day.

young hearts burst open wounds bleed fresh

I'm odd. Everything is just weird. I can't seem to make up my own mind.





Though I believe I have now :3





So basicery:

I've decided to run everyday with Adam. Feel so much better about myself.

And on my trusting people. Well, I'm an open person. I'll always be one. I trust easy, but I won't think so much of people now. I won't put so much into them. I'm not sure how to explain that. Making no sense.

My itunes won't open. Still won't read the disc. Ah, shiiieeet.

High school is coming to an end. Well, 4 months but it's going to feel like 2. I'm not too bummed on it. No reason. Excited to turn 18 though. Not much of a difference though, but still I'll be legal.

4D ultra sound, scary shit. my nephew looks hideous, he looks mummified.

I'm getting a kitten. In less than a year ^^

I want to watch Donnie Darko, Nick & Norah's Infinite Playlist, AND Elfen Lied.
Major problem. I have none on DVD x_x

My back still kinda hurts from that roller coaster @ stateline. & the top of my head from walking into the van's side mirror -_-


Pink Floyd, the rain, and Pizza Hut pizza are my happiness at the moment.






Ps: Mai wief; march 11th<3

Where does the good go?

the one time it matters, the one time I want it more than anything I've ever had, ever even thought of having-I cannot have him...stuck waiting wanting and wondering what the hell to do. I only have so much strength to keep going. I almost let myself break down, but held it in. I almost let go, or so I think. But its still there. I'm not sure where to go from here...



ps: tegan & sara. where were they all my life?

(i love lacey)

je mange une banane

et ecoute la musique.

stateline demain. je suis heureuse.
et petit désorienté. zut.

:B

i burped and taste beer o_O
gross.

'i'm in love' ' i'm in like' hahaha. stupid oldass mac computers.
j'adore mon amie<3

i keep taking breaks. now i'm eating ravioli.


aaaaaaaand i want it x_x


fuck i have a headache and can't think for shit.
fuck you. be back sunday.


PS: kittiez

4 Months

Til' I am out of high school. Crasseeee shieett.
Excited. Sad. Nervous. Relieved. & many other feelings! 4 months is going to go by way too fast, not sure if thats good or bad. We shall see. I still need to fill out that FAFSA shit. Before March 2nd. I hate deadlines, I bes' git used to them. College is around the cornerr. Fuck.

So I find out today about Stateline. Have a feeling we're not going. Eh. I'm sure I'll find something else to do. & if not. Next weekend. Planning to go to Disneyland. & again before April. 3 day hopper tickets for $99. Thanks to my sister and her finace being in the Navy.

I HATE DULPLICATES. If I haven't replied I'm either busy, sleeping, or just trying to ignore you. SO DON'T RESEND THE LAST FUCKING TEXT ><;

*sigh* For some reason I'm loving Coheed and Cambria again. Ah. Reminds me so much of freshman year. At NHS & SVHS. I miss those days, somewhat.

& I'm stuck on 'Head Over Heels'. Let's watch Donnie Darko together yes? :3


PS: http://www.donniedarkofilm.com/

Head over heels

"Something happens and I'm head over heels
I never find out till I'm head over heels
Something happens and I'm head over heels
Ah, don't take my heart, don't break my heart
Don't, don't, don't throw it away..."


:3

I, I really wish you'd make up your mind

!

Srsly need to get mah shit togethaarr!
Go to DMV to get a fuckin permit
Keep grades up -_-
Fix my teeth :(
Run a few times a week
& get mah head straight!
i'm sure theres more which i just can't think of...

Yep.

Oh, and a way to pay for the piercing I am getting :x
Still not sure what I want but I'm getting another for sure.
& getting a kitty will have to wait. Til I move out. Not sure when that'll be.

Fuckingg Awesome

Eating Captain Crunch and listening to Sparta @ 3am! AND being completely confused and wondering if I should take my own advice. Fuck. KT tyme...

Bye bye beautiful

Woke up pretty early, good sleep too. I cleaned just about everything. Just to get my mind off things. Now there is nothing left to do. Just waiting for my mom to get home so I can leave and try to get my mind off things. I've noticed I have a really hard time holding my tongue (not literally). I'm in a weird mood today. Too many moods actually. I'm currently listening to Coheed and Cambria. I was going through my old cds and I found "In Keeping Secrets Of Silent Earth: 3", so I decided to import into my itunes. I haven't listened to them in forever. Srsly. Reminds me of freshman year, I was obsessed with them ha. I still remember all the words I think, singing pretty loud. Hmm, I miss the simple times. Fuck, so much shit going on right now. I'm not sure what to think. About anything. Mixed signals, lies, and too many feelings. I'm prbly just thinking too much. Or not. Anyways. It's beautiful outside. Hopefully things get better later in the day.

No affection, just shut her up

Goodness. Why is TBM so epic?! I can't get enough of them. everrrr. I need to buy the looking glass ep, a few deftones cd's, and a tegan and sara cd! I never buy cd's D:

We're way broke. So I'm way broke. Woot.

& surprisingly, I crave cuddling more than sex right now :x

Monday night Lisa & Matt are coming down from San Diego. We're going out to dinner with the fam. Not sure where. Told me to pick the place. Suggestions?

& why the hell am I thee only one to have to clean this apartment?! Not only do I clean. But I do everyones laundry -_-

and I still wonder why I couldn't keep K'nuckles! :'(



Anyways. High school. Eh. Tired of the bullshit. Crazy though, we're already ordering our cap & gowns. Choosing class bests, I have no idea who's names to put down. Thinking about the end of Senior year, gets me nervous. Even turning 18! 3 months & 10 days. So close. Then starting jr college soon after. Fuck.


PS: Sister is choosing laptop for me. Not too expensive, but good [brand] (Apple, Sony, etc)?

Can't wait

Rain

Makes me want to cuddle under the covers with someone and watch a movie!
Too bad :|

OHHH. It'd be nice to have my BB pearl now. Even though I didn't like that much. Ah -.-

& I just touched my nose. I completely like forgot I had my septum pierced.
I'm so lost today o_o





Ps:During 5th:

"haha love isn't forever"

*looks at Terry*



WTF?! xD

Ouch

My legs are hurting a lot.
I should start getting ready for school.
I'm confused.

I still need to drop that classsssss. But counselors are always busy with testing, and other students.
ahhhhhhh. I didn't go to 6th or 7th. Adding on to my 18hrs of detention ><;






I wonder how the rest of this week will go. I'm growing tired of everyone at school. Only a few don't irritate me...


I wonder how my weekend will be. hrm. :I






Currently listening to: Deftones :)






PS: I'm fat. -.-
About to do some sit-ups!

I ran

last night. A mile and a lap, and I'm sore. I feel good though. I should be running tonight too. My feet hurt from wearing these flats from urban outfitters (which i've only worn 3 times now). I absolutely love their shoes. I have my eye on a new pair, a bit pricey for me at the moment.
Yes, I know. I like weird things :3
http://images.urbanoutfitters.com/is/image/UrbanOutfitters/15661572_21_d?$magnify$


Anyways, today was nice, then turned out to be a bit stressful. I honestly cannot trust anyone. *sigh* I trust easy. I believe in too much. & I'm very forgiving. I know its horrible. I do it to myself though. Oh well. I over think too much too. If that sentence even makes sense.

I somewhat tried to be friends with Nathan, well I thought about it. Just not going to work out. I just hate how awkward it is. Another 'Oh well' on that subject.

4 day weekend next weekend! Stateline 13th-15th (I'm guessing). I just can't wait to be away, even if its for 2 days, and I love the desert heat...sometimes. And I might wear that cute fringe tank top, haven't worn it yet. I looooooooooooove fringe.

I can't think of anything to squeeze in...










Oh, surprisingly I'm not that emotional this time of the month.
& another weird thing is...I don't crave sex as much. WEIRD. VERY WEIRD.

Anddd I have a small bug bite on my left boob. Maybe a mosquito bite? It's itchy. & annoying the fuck out of me.



OH YEAH. I'm going to Massachusettes sometime after May before September. For my soon to be nephew's baptism. Never been on a plane, or to Massachusettes :x





heh
HELP ME. I dunno how to use this sewing machine. Come over and show me :|








PS: Can't wait to get my laptop.

I've been

replaced -__-


I honestly shouldn't care. but I do. *sigh*









Fucking assholes.
_______________________________________________________

PS: I'M COMPLETELY FRUSTRATED WITH MYSELF AT THE MOMENT.

Babys such a baby!

At the moment I am content. I feel fat, and gained some weight but still content. Listening to Human Waste Project, and loving Aimee Echo more and more each second. I wish I would've seen them play in October, she looked gorgeous. Once in a lifetime opportunity :p oh, well I see theSTART in March. Maybe Aimee will do the splits at the Knitting Factory...I can only hope -_- haha, or the spit and fingers<3 Anyways, enough of that...I can't get enough of this song though, "Electra". Ahhhhh. I'm not sure why so much drama, yet I'm happy :3

& the reason for the picture of Jigglypuff is because its so darn cute, and silly. Idk. I feel like watching the first Pokemon episodes [they would show on the WB]. Yes, I watch cartoons. I actually feel like watching The Marvelous Misadventures of Flapjack right now, I love itttt. ~Babys such a baby!

Vertical Labret

If I get any other piercings, that will be the one. I'm such a pussy though. I know its going to hurt like bitch to get it pierced, and definitely going to bleed. And I think since I have a big bottom lip its going to hurt more. Oh, another reason why I don't want to get it..I'm afraid if I get it and eventually take it out it will not only scar my lip, but the hole won't shut. So I'm still really thinking about it. If I make up my mind and decide to get it, I'm getting it soon after I turn 18.



Ps: Who plays GH World Tour this early? ME. & I'm actually playing with Louie. Ha.
I should probably do laundry. haa. it can wait.

& who's the asshole who lost the tv remote :U

Did I just gain 5 lbs?

Because honestly I feel like I did -_-

I think I should quit smoking. Because I end up eating so much.
Like last night...Jack in the Box and Burger King. That's sick x_x
Now I feel really fat, and wish I could run it off right now. But I'm babysitting my 9yr old brother. -sigh- And Kaylan spent the night. She should be leaving in a few to move the last couple of things in her house. Anyways that reminds me...

Stateline!~Never been. So excited. Just wanna get away from all this bullshit, too. Also, I haven't been to the desert in a while too. & I'm curious who is going to be down there with us...
Hopefully its pretty dope :)

Oh, but back on the weight thing.
So Monday might go running with Adam and them, its a maybe. I want to though. And I think I'm going to stop drinking soda from a while, drink a lot more water, and eat less...or maybe just eat a little better...or not eat late at night like at 3am o_o but still do some exercise too. Like sit-ups, yeah...before summer gets here. I def should so I can actually feel comfortable going to the beach in a bikini..now only if I could remember all this and have some self control... -.-





PS: Found Kaylan's sewing machine yesterday. Finally going to sew some shit up!

Je suis

I Like 'Em Weird

<333333333

I'm Running

on 1 hour of sleep. Awesome! Ha, I'm sleepy. But it was so worth it. :3

I had a 160 questions on french 2 final. I thought I'd never finish it. I almost fell asleep half way through haha. Anyways, as I'm typing Dillon is kneeling right next to me, yeah he likes to kneel.

I have to wash clothes and wash dishes. and my phone is still out of service.
today was fun.


fun fact~i'm silly when i'm tired.



ps: I'm happy.

At the Moment

I am very irritated. Impatient. & Confused.




Listening to Tegan and Sara-Living Room, with the volume on my speakers all the way up. Lacey got me into them. This song really hasn't annoyed me yet, which is surprising because I play it over and over again. I need to go to a concert SOON. Since I decided not to see theSTART earlier this month because I wasn't feeling it, all that drama started. Well, they play again in March which should be epic. Wish I could see TBM though.

I'm supposed to be babysitting my brothers while my mom and Mario go out to see a movie. But they are watching tv in the other room, because I kicked them out of the living room like a bitch. Ughh. I'm not sure what it is. But I'm just in such a bad mood. Out of nowhere I just get REALLY irritated, every little thing just builds and builds onto it. -sigh- I hate being confused and I hate being so damn impatient. I feel like I can't fucking help it. FUCKK.

Also, my phone will probably be shut off in a few hours. Or by midnight. Because they haven't paid the bill. But they are paying it tomorrow, so I'll only be w/o it for a few hours. Sucks because I don't even have a house phone right now, my mom hasn't paid the bill for that either...



On another note~


I feel like I'm going to get hurt, but I know it'd be my own fault. I don't want to stop though. I want it pretty bad. And by it, I mean...well actually I'm not exactly sure what 'it' means. Well not yet at least...

Oh Dear

I am so confused. What have I gotten myself into?

But I cannot stop, I don't really want to at all -sigh-



Anyways, what is up with everyone being a douche to me? I'm pretty much talking about close friends, just being jerks to me. WTF MAN. I don't believe I deserve it. Whaaaaaatever I guess. Fuckers.

OHH. and whats with random ass girls from school talking mad shit about me?! Its fucking ridiculous. Thats high school though.

2nd semester begins next week. Senior year has gone by so fast. I can still remember my first high school crush freshman year. I was an idiot. Still am. Hahaha. Winter Formal is this friday I think, not going. I'm going to prom though...but idk, I have a feeling I won't want to when it gets closer to the date. FUCK WHAT AM I RANTING ABOUT?

I am just bored and extremely aroused trying to get my mind off it. So here's a picture of K'nuckles. Just to make myself more bummed. & show you what an awesome cat I had.

Singly

It's as if right after I got out of a relationship I was no longer invisible. When I notice a guy he actually notices me, amazing. ha. And I came to realize that I am still very much attracted to girls and I can actually get girls if I really wanted to.


But anyways, I'm so over relationships. At least for now, until I think I've found someone who is worth tying myself down for who won't fuck me over and can actually keep me satisfied. So for now, I am single and being myself. Thee only thing I must worry about now is not to get too attached to anyone, and not crush on so many people. If that makes any sense.

Finals?!

Finals this week. I NEED to pass Econ, English, Alg 1, French 2, and Digital Photo. I should probably do my Alg 1 make up work, pay my lab fee for Digital Photo, study for the Econ final, and REALLY study for my french 2 final. pourquoi je ne sais pas le francais. that probably made no sense.

My motivation: a nice shiny new laptop from my sister & a used car from my mom.
Of course I will only get those things if I graduate. (which i will..because c'mon its fucking Northview HS)



fuckfuckfuck. I'm way too lazy though.



PS: Minimum days all this week cept for Monday and Tuesday, & I don't have a 1st or 4th period meaning I get to show up late/leave early.


PPS: GH World Tour this week. I'm not sure how many ppl are coming over either, I have a feeling it will get rowdy. Oh well.

My Phones Never Last

This morning I woke up, looked at my phone, It was at the password screen. I had fallen asleep last night as it was taking a fucking hour to turn back on. Well, I entered the password then click the ball...an extra letter appeared as if i had pushed another button for the password. Well I just turned my phone off, then turned it back on. Again it did the same thing. Well I finally got my phone on and I had 6 messages, but I could not get to them! I finally figured out to use the 'enter' button, then I went on BB Messenger and tried typing something out. The letters started coming up themselves and whenever I'd try pushing a button another letter would come up. So basically for no reason I can possibly think of my BB has failed on me. I've had it since October. WTF. I've had used phones before this, about 4 which all failed on me. I just blamed them on being "old & used". Now, I'm guessing its me. Ha. I need a new phone now. I don't really care if its new or not. Just not one of those nokia ones, haha. I guess I can't be picky. FML. My BB just randomly type 'wewewewewewewewewewe' and I didn't push a button WHAT THE FUCK. It must be possesed, or something. Fuck this red blackberry pearl. AHHH. Okay, I am done ranting. For now :)


10:33am
All the buttons on my phone no longer work. Fucking great.

The L Word

I believe it was in the middle of the week, I was sitting on the comp while my mom's bf was flipping through the channels on the tv. Then I turn around and The L Word is on the tv screen. So I sit, and just stare at the screen for a few minutes. Then my moms bf looks at me and says "Are you gay?"... I look at him and think "fuck. Is it that obvious I like girls?" Then I say the stupidest thing, "Well I was with Nathan..." he looks at me and says "That doesn't mean anything" and laughs. I then continue watching The L Word. Btw, Shane isn't as hot as I thought and Jenny...is still hot, even hotter when she's a bitch. Haha. Even though her boobs aren't natural. Still drop dead gorgeous. And I know Jenny is going to die soon. FUCK ADELE. Anyways, I want to buy all the seasons :DD

My Saturday

Woke up, bummed and still very aroused. I hate being horny and not being able to do anything to get my mind off it. Not even sleep. Anyways, I sat on the computer listened to music and texted awayyy. Around noon I randomly called Alexiss to just hang out later, play GH World Tour and catch a movie. She said yes, then my mom's bf picked me up and we went to Norms. My first time. I ordered the California Burger, which had onions when I asked for none. It was okay, I finished about half, and not much of the fries either. My dumbass drank a small orange juice before I got my food, not very bright! Btw I hate how that place was built, it's just way too small. Right when I got home Alexiss was ready to be picked up, we then picked her up and played GH World Tour for maybe 2 hours. We make an awesome band btw, even though we can't do drums on medium or guitar on hard. Yes I know, amazing. Thennnnn we got dropped off at AMC 30 to catch the 4:30 showing of Underworld: The Rise of the Dycans...I mean Lycans* harharhar. Anyways we go to buy the tickets and he asks "Do you 2 have any id with you?" I say yes but only my school id and I'm 17. Alexiss doesn't have her id with her, so he looks at her and says he cannot let her in, and im saying "she really is 18" because she is but she looks 16. He can sell me a ticket, but not her? He says to get someone thats 21 to buy the tickets and they need to watch the movie with us...um we're not fucking 12. Anyways we say thank you and walk inside ticketless to see if they will quit this foolishness and give us 2 fucking tickets to a rated R movie. The woman says no, you need to have a person that is 23 years old buy the tickets and watch it with you. TWENTY FUCKING THREE? Are you kidding me?! By then we are pissed as hell wanting to blow AMC up into nothingness. Alexiss calls her mom and asks her to bring her id's so we can get into the fucking movie. Anyways, we get in and see the movie. It confused me very much because I had no idea it was in the past, before the other 2 Underworld movies. But either way, it was verrrrry good. Sonja is very fucking hot, with those pale blue eyes of course. Im going to have to say Kate Beckensale is thee hottest vampire though ;) Sooo after that we sat near coldstone waiting for my mom to pick us up (God I feel like I'm back in middle school typing "waiting for my mom to pick us up" haha). We talking anddd I found out the most wonderfullest thing! I'll put it this way though: Some guys are complete cowards, and cannot admit that they cheat. Fucking pigs. AND some girls are nothing but pathetic whores who fuck guys simply for the attention. Anyways coming Monday I believe I'm going to confront someone :)